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Boy 1: Miss, hove you ever smoked weed?
(the small group I was working with, including me, bust out laughing)
Boy 1: Come on, I know you have.
Me: Let's leave that topic out of the classroom.
Boy 2: Were you in a sorority?
Me: How come? I mean, what makes you ask that?
Boy 2: I dunno. You look... um, just wondering uh (starts mumbling and feeling insecure) if you were a... sorority girl...
Me: I was a part of one.
Boy 2: What'd you have to do to get in? Did you get hazed?
Boy 1: (gets excited) Hazed?! Like...
Boy 2: No, not like drugs foo!
Boy 1: *laughs* Oh, so Miss, how many times have you done it?
Me: (group and me breaks out in laughter) Okay, lets get your mind off the weed and back in this class!

Sweet kids, huh? :D

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I love how welcomed I feel at the high school I'm at. The students are so genuine, friendly, and makes me feel right at home. I'm trying to work with the students more since I will be officially taking over next Monday. eek! So one boy starts up a conversation with me... basically to find out who I am and what I'm doing there. When I told him I would be taking over the class next week, he got all excited:
Boy: You're taking over Mr. N?! Is he leaving?
Me: Oh no, he'll still be here.
Boy: Aw man! I thought he's leaving. So are you going to pass me?
(looks over his shoulders and sees Mr. N looking at him)
So now he's looking at me. He just doesn't want to pass me. I just want a D.
Me: Well you're not going to pass if you don't do the work so come on, I'll help you.
Boy: (continues to babble about not being able to pass. tells me he likes to draw and shows me an awesome drawing he's working on. continues to complain about the teacher not passing him.)
Me: Okay, I want to see you pass this course. I want you to pass this course as much as you want to pass, so lets get to work.
Boy: I only want to pass so I don't have to go to jail.
hm... go to jail or do minimal work to get a D. Doesn't sound like a tough choice to me. But he's a really sweet boy and I look forward working with him more. The saddest part for me is not having enough time to work with each student! Too many times class ends as I'm barely figuring out the issues that they're having. It's also really discouraging to realize that these students do not know basic things like dividing, algebra, fractions & decimals. Seriously, they cannot divide!

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I sewed last night until 5 am. When I hopped in bed, The Straight Story was showing on Bravo (which was left on from Queer Eye). For those who don't know, it's a story about a man, Alvin, who found out that his brother had a bad stroke. They had a falling out so they hadn't talked for 10 years. He was determined to go mend things with his brother, so he travels over 250 miles on a lawnmover. (His only mode of transportation, besides relying on others, because he lost his drivers license due to his poor eye sight.)

The movie was incredibly slow, but I found myself hooked watching it until 7 am! The whole movie is basically about his journey and the people he meets along the way. It was so simple (plot), yet so complex (his character). The plot was VERY simple... a man on a lawnmower, but the character development was amazing. It's one of those movies where it's all about the character development (like Lost in Translation). I cried SO many times watching it. It made me REALLy scared about getting old, but also reminded me to enjoy my youth. But what scared me the most was the thought about the people I love getting old, especially my grandpa. I was so attached to Alvin as if he was my grandpa. I'm all sad now.

I know that I should spend time with my elders while they're still around, but I don't know how. I would love to hear stories about their past, about their times through all the wars, but I was told that those are very bitter memories for my grandpa and I shouldn't bring it up. (He was a pharmacist, so when the communist took over, he was put into "re-education" camp. No one knows what happened in there because he would never talk about it, but he can't hide that they cut off his toe.) I would LOVE to know what happened in there, but I don't want to bring back painful memories either. My aunt told me what she saw when she went there to try to see him, but I want to know what he had to live through.

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After school yesterday, the science teachers invited me to go hang out with them at a local resturant/bar that turns into a club. I was reluctant at first but with a little twist of the arm I caved in. All I have to say is that they're a CRAZY bunch. They go every Friday and although it started with just their department, it has expanded since to include math, english, social studies, and even other schools. Work hard, play hard. I sensed sexual tension??... I'll just leave it as that. :P

Remember I mentioned about making a cocktail dress for my lil sis? Well, she ended up not wearing it because she didn't like how it looked on her (body type). :( I was bummed that it didn't work out for her, but she did end up getting a super sexy dress for herself and another girl ended up wearing the dress I made. I was going to wait for her to send me better pictures, but I'm just impulsive so I'll just share the proofs I saw online. It's the light green dress. Picture lacks detail, but maybe I can share a better picture later. I want to show off the skirt because I really liked how it turned out.

One more paper to write and I'm DONE!!!... for the quarter. :P

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Happy St. Patty's day! I decided to whip up earrings last night to go w/ my Lucky Charm Necklace.

L just shared with me some pics from the BEAUTIFUL wedding!!

Here's a picture of the bridesmaids in the skirts I made:

Here's a picture of the flower girl in her dress, but too bad she already stained the dress by the time this picture was taken! Maybe the bride will have a better picture later.

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Does anyone else out there find themselves thinking "ctrl z" in real life? For example, couple nights ago while I was sewing, I messed up and my left hand automatically tried to hit "control" & "z". My mind automatically thought, "Control Z". I always get so dissapointed when I realize that there is no undo option.

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*drool* my serger is here. gaaaaaw... my sewing machine has a buddy now! :) it's so much more complicated than my sewing machine though!!! time to play!

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I just sat in traffic for 2 hours just to travel 25 miles!!! LA traffic SUCKS! ick!

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The whole hiring process is happening so quick. We met with some department chairs today. We're meeting with LAUSD principals tomorrow and we also sign up for interviews tomorrow too. Then Centinella Valley's (CV) thing is on Monday. (CV is a bit far for me, but I want to keep my options open.) I can't decide what area I want to be in!!!

The schools close to me seem to not have Physics openings. A teacher I met at a Physics conferece last weekend told me he just left this school that's pretty near by, so I asked the dept chair today if they're looking to fill his position. She responded, "Oh, we just scraped out Physics entirely." grrreat. So many schools don't have Physics and don't plan to hire for it. *sigh* No worries, there are a lot of openings for Physics, just not at schools near me. But I'm open to moving so I'm willing to go far if it's a good situation and just buy a house out there. We'll see. Okay, gotta sleep early so I can atually wake up early (9am!) to go "meet the principals". I've been having it good this quarter... sleeping in until 11. :)

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I found this quiz on Ci's site. Here is what the test concluded about me:
1. You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

2. In the process of courtship, the approach that would make you feel irresistable is creative, never let you feel bored.

3. The impression you would like to give to your lover is flexible.

4. You don't like it when your partner is emotional and/or too moody where you don't know how to please him/her.

5. The kind of relationship you would like to build with your partner is one that you care not only about the present but also the future with your partner, a long-lasting relationship that you can grow with.

6. You care about the society and morality, you won't do anything wrong after marriage.

7. You are afraid of marriage, you think it would take away your freedom.

8. At this moment, you think of love as a committment for both parties.

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"Yen da, du xiao" (literal translation is "big eyes, little stomach". I remember seeing that quote for the first time on Cyn's site because it was the title of this painting of hers. That line rung in my head for awhile because I kept trying to relate it to the two chicks fighting for the worm and couldn't make sense of it. It took me awhile before learning what it means. It ends up so perfect that this was the painting she gave me because it so perfectly describes me.

I just have too many hobbies and interest. There are so many projects I want to do!! I still remember a letter of rec a supervisor once wrote for me my freshman year in college. Everything was very positive except "Caroline tends to have too much on her plate and can spread herself too thinly." That was the first time it occured to me that you CAN have too much to do. I then worked on focusing on a few good things, but towards the end of my college life, I just felt like I was running out of time to do all the things I want to do. And on the note of too many hobbies, I just bought a serger today. :)

In case you don't know, a serger is like a sewing machine, but it's used for things like hems. It's also known as overlock? Go look at the edges of your shirts and that's the work of a serger. :) It can do things like blind hems, gathering, narrow seams, decorative edging, rolled edge hems, and a bunch of other stuff I don't know. :P

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Do not use cucumbers to treat under eye circles if you're allergic to melons. And if you did without realizing or forgetting that you're allergic, Visine (with antihistamine) is your best friend, even if it expired 4 months ago.

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Yay! I finished the bridesmaid and flower girl dress! Here's the flower girl dress:

This dress is for the 18 month old flower girl. It's made of a beautiful, textured silk in a rust color with a gold trim and pearl embellishments. The dress ties on the top, so it looks a little weird laid out flat. The bridesmaid dresses are made of the same rust, silk fabric. The wedding is a more casual, outdoor, beach wedding in San Deigo. It sounds beautiful. I'll be sure to ask for pics. Funny thing is the day after I took on this project, my lil sis called me to make her a dress for our sorority's formal. So I went with her to get fabric today and another project I start. Oh yeah... and I bought more beads. :D
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