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sleepy... had a GREAT casino night... Jonathan was shooter for an hour... MY MOM FORGOT MY BIRTHDAY... DADDY REMEMBERED MY BIRTHDAY (EVEN MY CHINESE BIRTHDAY)... only one more welcome week event...

Oh yeah... so on a sadder note. I called my dad to wish him a happy birthday. In the end of our conversation, he told me to go visit my grandma (his mom), and I know my mom kept telling me that earlier too, but I didn't think anything of it. But when my dad talked to me, he told me to visit her because since her fall couple months ago, she has not regained her strength and has not gotten out of bed.

I'm sad and worried because when my great grandmother passed away (100 yrs old), I was here in training and my mom called to just tell me to go home for the weekend. I told her I couldn't because of recruitment.... she just said okay. Then I talk to my dad and he says, "so I'll see you this weekend"... and I was like, "huh? No, I said I'm busy." My dad responded, "What? Don't you know? Didn't your mom tell you? ...Great gramdma passed away and her funeral is this weekend."

I was really hurt by my greatgrandma's passing... I REALLY REALLY loved her and we were pretty close. I tried to spend a lot of time with her during her last month. I wish I had more time to spend with her though. She was so witty and funny. The problem now is that I feel like the reason why I've been distant from my dad's mom has to do with my great grandma. I haven't really had time to figure it all out, but I've always felt that my great grandma was so cool and why did she have to go. My mom just kept saying that she lived a healthy 100 yrs and is ready and can happily leave. I felt a little better. This was 2 years ago... but for the past two years, I keep comparing my dad's mom to my great grandma and how she's not as cool. And now that her time may be near, I can't get myself to bond with. I'm not sure why... because I feel guilt like I'm betraying my great grandma, because it causes me to relive the lost of my great grandma, because I'm avoiding getting close to someone that I'll lose...??? I've always been uneasy with death. My greatgrandma was the first death I had to deal with (besides when my mom's best friend committed suicide back when I was 6, but I don't feel like that counts because I didn't comprehend it enough to have to deal with it).

I'll ponder over this a bit... but for now, I'm really sleepy and want to hit the sack. nighty night!

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY, DADDY!!!

So two events down, two to go. We had such an AWESOME turn out both days! We got around 125 people to our carnival yesterday, and 350 to our luau today!!! We got our food from Aloha Chicken in Buena Park, and the owner, Anna, was waaaaay nice! She hooked me up with an extra tray of rice and a tray of maccaroni salad! So if you ever need catering, I highly reccomend her... too bad I didn't get a chance to actually try the food though. We had so many people, we had to be super frugal with the portions... and we still ran out! Oh well, a big success.

Our casino night is tomorrow! It's our huge event of the week... not that tonight wasn't huge enough, but I can't wait to see how many people come. I just hope we have enough people working for crowd control reasons. I'm super tired... good night!

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So it just occured to me right now when jkduckie asked me for my age that my birthday is in EXACTLY ONE WEEK (September 30)! I don't even have any plans! Well, I'm most likely doing a Taco Tuesday at El Torrito again this year since it's cheap alcohol ($2.95 marguritas) and 75 cents tacos. That way, no one is excluded because of money. So you are all welcome if you're in the Irvine area or willing to come to the Irvine area! Let me know if you need directions. =D

So move in was yesterday... and yes, it was a very successful move in. But for my group, the fun is just beginning. We're having our "You can't lose" carnival today (Monday), our Luau tomorrow (Tuesday), and our Casnio night on Wednesday... and an Ice cream party on Thursday. So you're all welcome to come by and check out my hard work! They should be waaay fun! We're making history here! (The past usually had pretty low key events, but we're starting with a BANG!)

So if you haven't already checked out my pics from Camp Marston, check it out and see how I got to do archery, bb guns, and CLIMBED A WALL... those rock climbing walls. Yes, and I made it all the way up too! Too bad I waited for so long to write about it... the fire to write is gone. My mind is already on new events.

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No time to write, but here are new pictures.

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Ice Blocking is soooooo much fun! I never went before, eventhough many opportunities have come up. A bunch of the staff went to our student center's lawn (tall, steap, grassy hill) with 3 ice blocks. Everyone was impressed with my first run... not bad for a first time. Went fast and stayed up the whole time. Then we tried crazier stuff, like going over bumps, going on our stomachs, going on stomachs with people on the back (of course, they made me the guinie pig for that), going backwards, etc. Fun times. I had a good solo last run too... everyone was impressed how I was able to go the whole flat length at the end. Then the finale run was Marco on his stomach and me on his back, facing backwards. Fun fun... too bad we hit a bump and in fear that I could get hurt much worse, I threw myself off... and landed on my head. But fun anyway! =)

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So we got two days of training done. Yesterday went soooooo well! They loved the scavenger hunt I put them through. It was this really cheesy plot to fight "Dr. Party Pooper". hahaha... and at the end, they found the clipboards I made them, then the manuals I made them. Everyone just loved it! All the other staff people were so jealous of my staff. My staff kept bragging about how they have the best training of all groups.

Then, today I had a bit trouble controling them. They were just so restless... well, one in particular. But I also understand that today's sessions were more intense and draining. But they got the hard parts out of the way. I explained to them how I got all the "boring" stuff out of the way early so we could get on with the fun stuff for the remaing of the two weeks. So they're happy campers again. Well, heading to either a pizza party or the ARC (our gym). hm... get calories or lose calories?

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Excited and nervous... well, kinda. More excited. Training begins tomorrow! I think I have everything together. I'm excited because I have A LOT of fun stuff planned for them, but I'm also nervous because the smoothness of training is all dependent on me! So since training begins tomorrow, my staff will be getting their manuals tomorrow. It won't hurt if I show you their manuals cover and backs right now, right?! What are the chances of my staff visiting between now and tomorrow morning... hm... What the heck? Why not?! Here it is:



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I can't believe my staff is moving in today!!! And training will be starting on Monday! AH! My supervisor and I was in our meeting until MIDNIGHT last night! I love this feeling though... everyone in the office hustling and bustling. Everyone's been staying till midnight lately. Crazy, huh? But that's the life of student affairs... as they often remind me. I like it though. I pretty much have everything done. I just need to work out some little details now.

So I'm determined... I'm gonna audition for American Idol 2. As I told Jonathan, I'm not expecting anything... I just want the feeling of actually taking action. I just want to make myself proud that I actually went out and tried for something that seems so far out. I've always been taught to just go for practical things and to stop thinking about "nonsense". My mom always yells at me for worrying about "nonsense". "Just finish studying and get whatever job you can get. Don't be so picky. Take whatever you can get." Although there is some merrit in what she's saying, she's also have been teaching me not to reach for anything better. She believes that as long as I strive to do well in school, everything will miracuously fall in place. I got in an argument with her that I need to plan ahead so I can work towards something, but she keeps beliving that I shouldn't worry about the future. whatever.

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I'm watching American Idol right now... *sigh* I don't know how to describe this feeling I'm feeling when I watch them perform. I guess when I watch it, I put myself in their shoes and am actually feeling what I would feel if I was them. I can relate to them... being an ordinary person with big dreams of being a singer. And they were given the opportunity and I am just enjoying how they must be feeling. I am soooo happy for them! Jealous too, but very happy.

I LOVE performing. When I see them, it brings me back to my performing days. One memory is when I was in the musical Hair for Greek Songfest last year. I loved the feeling I got just stepping onto the stage and hearing everyone cheering. And especially when I busted out my solo and I hear the roar of cheers after my first line. And I just really really miss performing... like when I used to perform with my choir and when I competed in dance in high school. It was always such a rush stepping out onto the floor, standing and waiting for the music to start before the crowd and judges. And even better was during the performance... I LOVED dancing for the crowd. I love working for their cheers. I love making eye contact and adressing someone. *sigh* Makes me sad... makes me think about my unfulfilled dreams.

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What a weekend! On Friday, I went shopping with Jonathan's brother, M. We shopped the vintage shops on La Habra and Melrose. M & I got a pair of Diesel jeans for like half off at Melrose. Yay!... A deal! And while in Melrose, I figured out my next hair do. I'm literally going through a different style each week. I'm going to half to get pictures to keep track of how many hair do's I go through with this one cut. I know many of you don't think it's that short, but I really feel like my hair is growing SUPER fast! That's why I have to go through a different style each week. After a week, I can't get my hair to do what I want it to, and that's why I end up changing up the look.

On Saturday, Jonathan, my dad, and I went to watch the SPARKS CHAMPIONSHIP GAME! I have to note this so I remember that I went. I kept forgetting that I attended this. =P Jonathan's manager got VIP tickets, so we got to sit in one of those suites. Very nice... only thing is that I felt distant from the crowd. We had the whole suite to ourselves, and my dad is the only one who was really into the game, so I couldn't get as into it with the rest of the crowd. Thank you Jonathan for taking my dad! It means a lot to me... and him.

So yup, I did say that my dad was into the game. He's into ANY basketball and soccer game... professional, college, men, and women. There's this story about my dad and his basketball... So back in 1983, my mom was pregnant with my brother. My dad was watching the Lakers game one night when my mom came to him and said "It's time!" OMG... she's going in labor. My dad replies, "Hold on, there's only 12 minutes left in the game". And my mom waited until the end of the game! And you know it wasn't just 12 minutes... it's more like 30 minutes in basketball time. We just make fun of my dad about it now.

On Sunday, we went to my cousin's birthday party in Camarillo. And we went to Santa Monica today (good choice... much much cooler!). And now I'm back in Irvine. I am going to be WORKING MY BUTT OFF this week because my staff movves in this Friday... and training starts next Monday!!! So I need to finish up their manuals and solidify my training sessions and schedule for them. I have the schedule down, but now I just need to make up my training sessions. I HAVE to show you the manual covers I made for them... but I can't show you until next week. I'm surprising them, and I don't want the surprise to be ruin if one of them stops by here. So for sure... next week. And I'll post a pic of my next do. But here's a pic of my current do... which today's prolly the last day of it. Tomorrow will be a new do! =D



Some of you may have seen it from Jongo, but I need records for myself. =P Thank you Jongo for taking the pictures for me. (and oh yeah, I was too lazy to download the pictures, so I just copied your source and am grabbing the pictures from you... so please don't change the location of the pictures. =P)
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